hidup aq serta merta berubah.

abang,abang,abang??...susahnyer jadi abang,padahal aq laki kot..num 2 dari sibling aq..ada kakak kot.tapi nape la aq kena smua..mungkin this is my path..thanks allah.alhamdullillah.mungkin ada sebab musabab aq dijadikan seperti ini.erm..tapi ok..even aq jadi abang pun kan..aq tgk orang laen smua jadi abang jugak..tapi tkder pun sorank yg btol2 main peranan...mcm mana aq tk bengang..but its fate..takdir..no one can change.i guess i need to take one step further than other.thank you ALLAH again.i live for u.hurmmm...papa dah meninggal dunia..tggl aq jer la laki yg plg tua..responsible aq berubah serta merta tat day.i still remember the date n time.17.03.2007 around 10.30pm.im in a camping.i get a call from my warden..said that my dad meninggal dunia while i not on his side tuh.mcm mana nak terima dier da tkder..?until now i not believe that he passed away.on the same day papa meninggal dunia,he call me n ask me how the camp n ada duit tak..?it just take about 5min pun.at least i had talk wit him.n so on then,im goin back to university n meet with my auntie then go straight head back to HKL.along the road i was shocked i cant say anything..then me n my auntie stop by at tapah rest area.semayang smua..pas tuh makan..then sambung blk jalan..until then baru i sedar that my dad passed away.before this i think that my dad still live and the doc on its way help my dad to live.but it was to late.i knew it n i crying sampai la kat hospital.i cant imagine it how much tears i drop tat day.Even dah 2years go...i always remember it always.starting from that day..my life change..my responsible getting heavier n bigger.and i start facing with family problem until now n the problem still on progress.i pray that the problems all will gone fast as i cud think.im tired of all this but wat i can do..its thing u cant face it..so i face it without any malu or wat.muka tebal je la slalu.Org cakap salu senang,bwat tu,bwat ni,keja la,relax la,chill la..they didnt realize wat they see and heard is just the part of the story not the whole story pun..do they care to even a smallest matter???..im starting to be hot tempered,not passionate and always like to mumbling and babbling stupid thing..ish3.wat happen la ngan hidup aq ni..aq terima semuan i sebagai dugaan dan hikmah n aq akan terima setiap masalah yang telah menimpa dan akan menimpa dengan senyuman ikhlas dan hati yg pasrah gila.tuh jer aq leh cakap.kat kawan2 smua,sorry la aq jarang lepak smua,kalo korank meceg aq tk reply,kalo korank call aq tk angkat,bukan apa..terus terang aq cakap,hidup aq berubah n completely change my life.aq tk harap sesiapa pun punya belas kasihan.cuma paham je.aq tk larat da nak pkir sapa aq nak kawan,nak lepak mana,nak cari awek..its over.sapa yg nak berkawan ngan aq kawan lah,sapa nak lepak aq akan cari korank jgn risau,awek..?if ada,ada lah.tkder pun tkper.